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Message: <blockquote data-quote="Chemist" data-source="post: 30410142" data-attributes="member: 585390">I was abused and bullied as a child. Back then everyone treated me like a wimp and i was short so i did not stand a chance. But as i got older i grew to 6’2. Suddenly i started getting more respect and nobody gave me a hard time anymore. I was successful but the emotional damage was still there. <img class="smilie smilie--emoji" loading="lazy" alt="😌" title="Relieved face    :relieved:" src="https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/6.6/png/unicode/64/1f60c.png" data-shortname=":relieved:" />To escape the pain i turned to self medication. First with prescription meds. The first time I took a Xanax i knew i’d be hooked forever. It wiped away all the emotional pain like it was never there. <img class="smilie smilie--emoji" loading="lazy" alt="🥰" title="Smiling face with hearts    :smiling_face_with_3_hearts:" src="https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/6.6/png/unicode/64/1f970.png" data-shortname=":smiling_face_with_3_hearts:" />That is when i got interested in psychology/ psychiatry/ the human mind/ and even chemistry. Eventually i started using narcotics instead of prescription meds just for the challenge. Fighting withdrawals/ staying sober/ falling back it all became a game to me. The danger made me feel alive and i felt so powerful. <img class="smilie smilie--emoji" loading="lazy" alt="😎" title="Smiling face with sunglasses    :sunglasses:" src="https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/6.6/png/unicode/64/1f60e.png" data-shortname=":sunglasses:" /></blockquote>

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