The devil inside me.

Nash_Node

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    The devil lives inside us.

    It's not an external source of evil. It's not down stairs doing a BBQ or some evil ghost figure who can be tamed by a cross or holy water.

    That's utter bullshit.

    Devil is within us. The ultimate fight is always within you.

    The enlightenment must be the acknowledgment of that devil inside of you.... identifying him, Caging him in a un-destructible cage and throwing away the key for good.

    As a human with good moral senses, I failed to hold the beast within me down last week.

    I let out a beast of un-imaginable ferocity which I never knew I had within. At the end I see lot of people hurt, both physically and mentally.

    I am hurt to see two people hurt physically really really really bad because of me. I am hurt to see their suffering families because of me. I am MORE hurt in knowing that I have taken steps to ensure that I will not get punished by LAW for what I have done to those two people.

    But, more than all, it hurts me everytime I look into the eyes of my GF.....to see her un-sure eyes..not knowing who am I anymore, which she always thought to know me right through !

    I failed my self in the religion I believe in.... "show limitless compassion towards humans wheather friend or foe" .......I failed missarably.

    But I guess, we are all nothing but mortal humans at the end of the day. We are sometimes pushed into situation that exceedes our normal capacity of emotional buffer...which results in such devestation like this.

    Trial and Error my friends..........Trial and error.

    Practice makes perfect.
     
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    pamithK

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    you beat up some guy? whoa!! thnx fr warnin..

    hey thing like this happen..when we wish we could rewind time..i wish i could back to saturday when i lost my purse..i know comparatively i doesn tlive up to your story..but the end is the same..both of us worry...

    physical damages will heal..but the mental scars last long..and its a long healing process..hope YOU get the support you need at this time:) :)
     

    DJ.Parker

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    Nash_Node said:
    The devil lives inside us.

    It's not an external source of evil. It's not down stairs doing a BBQ or some evil ghost figure who can be tamed by a cross or holy water.

    That's utter bullshit.

    Devil is within us. The ultimate fight is always within you.

    The enlightenment must be the acknowledgment of that devil inside of you.... identifying him, Caging him in a un-destructible cage and throwing away the key for good.
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    Trail and Error my friends..........Trail and error.

    Practice makes perfect.


    have to agree on this. Sorry abt the scene bro. Will hope 4 the good:)
     

    uguduwa

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    I am perfectly ok.

    But the two people I beat the shit out is not doing so good at all. :(

    Its a small form of war..war brings u nothing men....u will get what u did...u met him in your childhood and u suffered a lot because of him...a lot...u let the anger grow in u...and u revenged...and u beat him...he's hurt and now he wants to revenge.....this is a chain....u might not meet him this life again, but u will in your next life...I used to hit people on the face when I was a kid knowing that it can stop any opponent...every time I hit someone I had disappointment..
    Karma is cyclic...u two had been fighting for a long time in sansara...and as a result he used to torture u in the old days...u could do nothing against him...at the same time u didnt know why he wanted to tease/hurt u..it all started at some point of ur past lives..and u two continued it for a long time, non of u tried breaking the link or the chain...in this human life also u did the same mistake...if u were a good Buddhist u would forgive him..so he wouldnt have anger on u..so u would be the wise guy to break the link...u made the same mistake...think...due to some blood poisoning he dies...he dies in anger....he will for sure look for a way of fighting back...at least as a Viper he will sting u...this is the cycle of sansara...and if he is gonna die, will u ever be able to have a normal mentality....? Ur not wise...u didnt let it go, u didnt break the thread that bound you two together hating each other....
    Have some Bodhi Pooja arranged for him...wish him good health, u determine urself to break the link, he's in hospital, go talk to him, tell him you are sorry, its not a shame..if ur a wise guy go do that...try to make his rage softer and softer.....u can still do that and break this sansaric connection...its not a good one...next time he might kill u...cos the door/partition between life and death is so thin, our lives are so fragile...hope I typed for nothing, hope this would help u realize how bad the situation is...never let foes grow...try to negotiate and make them softer at u...u wont be sorry...ur girl frnd might be a nice and innocent one to look at your eyes like that questioning this guy is good or bad...I personally dont like such people too..men are not just creatures...use ur head.:nerd::nerd::nerd:
     

    uguduwa

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    not trail and error, it should be Trial and Error...but of course trials should not be this sarcastic...never go beat anyone.
     

    uguduwa

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    I didnt explain much of the sansara and how the Karma works....thinking ur a Buddhist...no matter what ur religion or the belief is, this is the way it happens...so respect it and try to have a problem-free life.
     

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    He......He.......you are the perfect MAN N_N, hipocrisy.......................& I am right there with you bro....................so dont worry,
    (Except, I dont beat people, it happens otherway around)

    I saw the beast years ago, I caught it, tamed it, Locked it in a cage.................yet I kep the key...........thinkin, in case I need the devil in me..............I still couldnt gather enough courage to throw away the key.................I think this is typical of human..........especially MEN!!!!

    If you want to take it out of your chest, stand up, face the reality...........go say sorry..............in the language they understand.................

    So, you are a macho guy ha?

    Did you get my email??? If so y the hell you did not reply???:growl: :growl:
     

    Nash_Node

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    uguduwa said:
    Its a small form of war..war brings u nothing men....u will get what u did...u met him in your childhood and u suffered a lot because of him...a lot...u let the anger grow in u...and u revenged...and u beat him...he's hurt and now he wants to revenge.....this is a chain....u might not meet him this life again, but u will in your next life...I used to hit people on the face when I was a kid knowing that it can stop any opponent...every time I hit someone I had disappointment..
    Karma is cyclic...u two had been fighting for a long time in sansara...and as a result he used to torture u in the old days...u could do nothing against him...at the same time u didnt know why he wanted to tease/hurt u..it all started at some point of ur past lives..and u two continued it for a long time, non of u tried breaking the link or the chain...in this human life also u did the same mistake...if u were a good Buddhist u would forgive him..so he wouldnt have anger on u..so u would be the wise guy to break the link...u made the same mistake...think...due to some blood poisoning he dies...he dies in anger....he will for sure look for a way of fighting back...at least as a Viper he will sting u...this is the cycle of sansara...and if he is gonna die, will u ever be able to have a normal mentality....? Ur not wise...u didnt let it go, u didnt break the thread that bound you two together hating each other....
    Have some Bodhi Pooja arranged for him...wish him good health, u determine urself to break the link, he's in hospital, go talk to him, tell him you are sorry, its not a shame..if ur a wise guy go do that...try to make his rage softer and softer.....u can still do that and break this sansaric connection...its not a good one...next time he might kill u...cos the door/partition between life and death is so thin, our lives are so fragile...hope I typed for nothing, hope this would help u realize how bad the situation is...never let foes grow...try to negotiate and make them softer at u...u wont be sorry...ur girl frnd might be a nice and innocent one to look at your eyes like that questioning this guy is good or bad...I personally dont like such people too..men are not just creatures...use ur head.:nerd::nerd::nerd:


    Thanks man, That's some nice advice !

    But, I am all good :lol:

    Sometimes things take a little time to sink in.
     

    Nash_Node

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    jayanthah said:
    He......He.......you are the perfect MAN N_N, hipocrisy.......................& I am right there with you bro....................so dont worry,
    (Except, I dont beat people, it happens otherway around)

    I saw the beast years ago, I caught it, tamed it, Locked it in a cage.................yet I kep the key...........thinkin, in case I need the devil in me..............I still couldnt gather enough courage to throw away the key.................I think this is typical of human..........especially MEN!!!!

    If you want to take it out of your chest, stand up, face the reality...........go say sorry..............in the language they understand.................

    So, you are a macho guy ha?

    Did you get my email??? If so y the hell you did not reply???:growl: :growl:

    Dude, I didn't get any email from you :nerd:.