Bro,
The very first thing I need to tell you is that you're not the first or the last person who does have such problems. So, that's the good news.
But yes, even knowing that, we feel down & depressed time to time. 'Coz,
people are different. So we have to deal with our problems with our individual nature. That's why, even when others tell us that they also had such problems, so don't worry, but still we are. As individuals we have to understand these situations. 'Coz,
at the end of the day, it's only you after all, who can really help yourself.
I guess you're finished with school recently. I did A/L in April, 2006. That means 6 years!. When I was in O/L, I also had hopes to go to Uni. So I studied hard for that exam. I could get 7As out of 10 subjects. But then what happened?. I have a relatively a weird health condition related to certain foods. & I didn't have a good childhood. Whatever the dreams I had, with the time, I realized that it will be very difficult to me to achieve my targets with my personal problems. So, I felt down. I didn't do A/L commerce well. 'Coz, I was broken. Anyways, since I always had at least a bit of this "Never give up" attitude, I sat for exam & got 3Cs, 1B. After school, I did computer dip @ NIBM, where I came across this girl, about whom I've been thinking for all these 6 years. & it's a one sided love.
& Still, couldn't help. Because of my personal problems, untill very recent times, I didn't have an interest of finding a job.
But I made a wise decision in 2009. I wanted to follow a degree course. So I joined BIT. When I was on da way to the registration, I thought that these 3yrs will be passed soon. I thought like that because of the previous experience. As I thought, now I'm in the final year doing my project. I've been going through a rough time all these year. But I'm glad when I'm thinking of such good decisions I made for my self at such difficult situations.
It's good that, you tell your problems with the people at here, at least. Don't keep them to yourself. Convert that broken-hearted, depressed feeling in to stream of a good power. In 2009, I started a blog to publish things I write. Actually, it helped me a bit to balance my mental situations. Try something you're interested in.
sondurusithuwam.blogspot.com
& I agree with the first comment.
Nothing does matter. But your mind.
කරන විදිහ මම ප්ලැන් කරනව දැවසක් මමම එහෙම ඇදපු ප්ලැන්එකක් දැක්ක මටම හිතාගන්න බැරිවුනා එක කරේ මමමද කියල මේ තත්වෙ ටික ටික වැඩිවෙනව වගේ දැනෙනව මගේ ඔලුව දැන් හොදටම අවුල වෙලා තියෙන්නෙ බං මම මගේ ත්රෙඩි එකේ දෙල තියෙන්නෙ පොඩි කාලෙ ඉදල මට උන දේවල්වලින් බින්දුවක් විතරයි මට මතක ඇති කාලෙක ඉදල මම හිටියේ දුකෙනියි බයෙනුයි විතරයි මේ උපන් හැටි තමයි 
