Dear Mommy,
I am in Heaven now... I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite
understand what has happened. I was so excited when I began realizing my
existance. I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers
and toes. I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready
to leave my surroundings. I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.
Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and
me.
Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would
yell or scream, then cry. I heard Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and
hoped you would be better soon. I wondered why you cried so much. One
day you cried almost all of the day. I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine
why you were so unhappy.
That same day, the most horrible thing happened. A very mean monster
came into that warm, comfortable place I was in. I was so scared, I
began screaming, but you never once tried to help me. Maybe you never
heard me. The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and
screaming, "Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me." Complete
terror is all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I thought I
couldn't anymore. Then the monster started ripping my arms off. It hurt
so bad; the pain I can never explain. It didn't stop.
Oh, how I begged it to stop. I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg
off.
Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying. I knew I would never
see your face or hear you say how much you love me. I wanted to make all
your tears go away. I had so many plans to make you happy. Now I
couldn't; all my dreams were shattered. Though I was in utter pain and
horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all. I wanted more
than anything to be your daughter. No use now, for I was dying a
painful death. I could only imagine the terrible things that they had
done to you. I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone,
but I didn't know the words you could understand.
And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead.I felt
myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful
place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone. The angel
took me away to a wonderful place... Then I was happy. I asked the
angel what was the thing was that killed me. He answered,
"Abortion". I am sorry, for I know how it feels." I don't know what
abortion is; I guess that's the name of the monster. I'm writing to say
that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little
girl. I tried very hard to live. I wanted to live. I had the will, but
I couldn't; the monster was too powerful. It sucked my arms and legs off
and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live. I just wanted you
to know I tried to stay with you. I didn't want to die.
Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster. Mommy, I love
you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did.
Please be careful.
Love,
Your Baby Girl