18th February 2012
I have decided to give up masturbation and orgasm. This was to be my last orgasm. So I wore my tight jeans and started tease myself and edge. After a few hours I cummed in my jeans so much that I jerked in my chair. It was to be my last orgasm for a long time. I defined some procedures on this day.
Wearing underwear during the day was a must.
I was not to wear any underwear during the night and was to wear shorts that clearly make cum stains visible (for example white shorts) so if I do cum I know that everyone would know that I cummed. My parents visit my room often in the morning so cum stains will not be an option.
No more porn! I placed all my porn files in to a Zip file with a password and placed it on DVD’s. It was 6GB! So it takes a lot of time to extract the files etc. I also installed Stop-Porn software and the K9 Web protection filter. Bottom line! Its not easy to watch porn.
I also changed my sleeping direction from face down to face up. Sleeping Face down actually excites me because my cock rubs when I move at night. Since there is to be no underwear from now on I will have to sleep facing up to avoid this sensation.
28th February 2012
I was horny but I knew I couldn’t do anything about it. I tried visiting porn but I couldn’t. My mind normally, when I was horny I would start looking at porn. But since the two web filters I couldn’t view them anymore. I could agree with myself to disable them. My head was messed up! My cock throbbed because I couldn’t watch porn.
5th March 2012
My attempts to watch porn failed over and over again. I tried to use Youtube to watch porn! Even that Anti-Porn software stopped. I was today unhappy, and frustrated. I burst in tears on my bed with my cock throbbing hard. I was helpless! I was sad! I missed my porn! I margined what since existing ones would be their! What new stories about cumming in jeans! A boy being forced to cum would be written! Which I would never read! But my inner mind defenses were strong! NO CUMMING EVER AGAIN! YOU WILL NEVER CUM AGAIN OR ORGASM AGAIN!
7th March 2012
I was very horny. My cock keeping throbbing endlessly. But kept my hands off it and kept on my day to day work. I was very very horny. I knew I could cum in 10 seconds of rubbing. I was hyper sensitive. Would be turned on when I sat on my computer.
8th March 2012
I was at a friend’s place in the morning wearing thin underwear and cotton pants. Didn’t have much sleep last night because I was up doing some work on the computer. Now I was extremely horny and sleepy, he was playing a game on his PC. I was inside his room lying on his bed with the ceiling fan on full. I fell asleep! All of the sudden, in my dream allow myself to orgasm saying “its only once” and then I started to cum! Into my thin underwear! I immediately became aware of what was happening! I knew that my underwear would not hold this much of cum! I hit the brake in to the wet dream instantly the building orgasm stopped and I only shot a globe of cum! That itself manage to soak through my underwear. My friend was not aware of what happened. My cock was still hard and throbbing to cum. I told him that I forgot my headset at home and went home to get it. I removed my underwear and immediately washed it. Then I put on the new pair of pants and underwear and return to my friends place. Now most will start to masturbate after this. But I was arrogant! I WANTED NEVER TO CUM AGAIN. I also noticed that my thin tight underwear ending location and my pants belt locations are a bit low (they have been like that). So when my cock grows there isn’t enough room in my underwear or pants. Now the pants can how ever compensate but the underwear does not. The cock throbs and the foreskin and the cock head start to rub under the tight underwear thus simulating me to orgasm.
15h March 2012
While riding my bike I in real day life, I suddenly felt my cock get excited to the vibration of the engine. Now honestly I knew the disaster that would happen! To have an orgasm this powerful while riding a bike was risky because during orgasm my muscles would flex and I might lose balance or control. I quickly slowed down the engine RPM and parked my bike on the road side and waited for this sensation to disappear. The problem was that when I am not horny the penis goes down pointing downwards. The thin and tight underwear attempts to keep it in that place so when this happens the cock head starts to feel vibration from the tension. My solution was simple. I made a small opening along top of the underwear below the elastic band. This made sure less pull on the pointed down penis and it also made sure that the cock would come out without restriction when I’m really horny.
16h March 2012
Today I took a piss and to find a sudden leak of pre-cum from the prostate. It felt like I wanted to pee but to find a drop of pre-cum came out. That day again when I was riding my bike I felt an urge to cum but this time I was not even hard! On the road. It was my seating position on the bike. I was sitting on the prostate simulating it. Now my there were certain factors, more than one. The pointed down penis throbbing, The pointed up penis throbbing, and sitting angle prostate simulation! Wow! I’m hyper sensitive! I found that angling back on the bike solved the urge to cum problem.
17th March 2012
The urges were there. It was still there and it was annoying. Today I took a shit. I found that small drops of pre-cum came out as I stressed to pass shit. I was a bit annoyed. I took a good shit and went to bed and fell asleep. All of the sudden in my sleep I felt another orgasm building! It was like “let me cum, let me cum” but then I hit the brake again! And this time not a single globe of cum came out my cock! It was painful, as awoke I could feel my cock and balls and prostate pulsating in pain. During the day the prostate was a bit sore. But I was still horny, I still wanted to cum!
18th March 2012
Today morning I woke, there was no urge to cum! There was no sore prostate. It was like I had a wet dream orgasm! I was like “Oh shit! Did I cum?” I was happy to find that my cum stain sensitive shorts were clear of any cum stains or such thing! What a thing uh? Wow! I thought to myself. Its seems that my body that had been used to orgasms and Cumming and is now slow realizing that it cannot proceed with it. The body has possibility start to absorb the semen inside the reproductive tract (back into the body), something it has not done for over 10 years. It has been a month since I had my last orgasm! WOW!
Hope to update later! And yes, I'm a Sri Lankan.
Conclusion so Far
Our society due to religions turn down masturbation.. This is a diary that shows everyone sensible that it is NOT impossible to quit masturbation, but it shows how completed things become. Not everyone has the brain IQ and power to intervene into a wet dream. As told here, stopping masturbation for a teenager is possible, but wet dreams CAN become nightmares when they happen in the wrong place. Its time all these religious PhD holders notice this.
>I have extra energy yes, I am able to run and walk more. But I tend to sleep during the day more!
>My reflexes and thinking speed has improved. So has my typing speed.
>Girls are more attracted to me. My social dialogs are better and my speaking speed has improved.
BUT
>My productivity has dropped by 50% because my mind is self-aware and trying methods not to have turn on's or orgasms.
>My eating has reduced by approx 30%, Ability to focus on work has dropped by 80%. I have not become fat! I have lost weight!
>Mental break was visible on the 5th of March 2012 showing minds collapse.
>Sudden anger, shouting. I feel very angry very fast.
These are facts parents, judges in court need to consider before saying "No porn". We will see how life goes. I'll report back with the rest of the diary in time. No one wants to talk of these things in Sri Lanka. Its a pity through because these are the things that need to be talked on.
I have decided to give up masturbation and orgasm. This was to be my last orgasm. So I wore my tight jeans and started tease myself and edge. After a few hours I cummed in my jeans so much that I jerked in my chair. It was to be my last orgasm for a long time. I defined some procedures on this day.
Wearing underwear during the day was a must.
I was not to wear any underwear during the night and was to wear shorts that clearly make cum stains visible (for example white shorts) so if I do cum I know that everyone would know that I cummed. My parents visit my room often in the morning so cum stains will not be an option.
No more porn! I placed all my porn files in to a Zip file with a password and placed it on DVD’s. It was 6GB! So it takes a lot of time to extract the files etc. I also installed Stop-Porn software and the K9 Web protection filter. Bottom line! Its not easy to watch porn.
I also changed my sleeping direction from face down to face up. Sleeping Face down actually excites me because my cock rubs when I move at night. Since there is to be no underwear from now on I will have to sleep facing up to avoid this sensation.
28th February 2012
I was horny but I knew I couldn’t do anything about it. I tried visiting porn but I couldn’t. My mind normally, when I was horny I would start looking at porn. But since the two web filters I couldn’t view them anymore. I could agree with myself to disable them. My head was messed up! My cock throbbed because I couldn’t watch porn.
5th March 2012
My attempts to watch porn failed over and over again. I tried to use Youtube to watch porn! Even that Anti-Porn software stopped. I was today unhappy, and frustrated. I burst in tears on my bed with my cock throbbing hard. I was helpless! I was sad! I missed my porn! I margined what since existing ones would be their! What new stories about cumming in jeans! A boy being forced to cum would be written! Which I would never read! But my inner mind defenses were strong! NO CUMMING EVER AGAIN! YOU WILL NEVER CUM AGAIN OR ORGASM AGAIN!
7th March 2012
I was very horny. My cock keeping throbbing endlessly. But kept my hands off it and kept on my day to day work. I was very very horny. I knew I could cum in 10 seconds of rubbing. I was hyper sensitive. Would be turned on when I sat on my computer.
8th March 2012
I was at a friend’s place in the morning wearing thin underwear and cotton pants. Didn’t have much sleep last night because I was up doing some work on the computer. Now I was extremely horny and sleepy, he was playing a game on his PC. I was inside his room lying on his bed with the ceiling fan on full. I fell asleep! All of the sudden, in my dream allow myself to orgasm saying “its only once” and then I started to cum! Into my thin underwear! I immediately became aware of what was happening! I knew that my underwear would not hold this much of cum! I hit the brake in to the wet dream instantly the building orgasm stopped and I only shot a globe of cum! That itself manage to soak through my underwear. My friend was not aware of what happened. My cock was still hard and throbbing to cum. I told him that I forgot my headset at home and went home to get it. I removed my underwear and immediately washed it. Then I put on the new pair of pants and underwear and return to my friends place. Now most will start to masturbate after this. But I was arrogant! I WANTED NEVER TO CUM AGAIN. I also noticed that my thin tight underwear ending location and my pants belt locations are a bit low (they have been like that). So when my cock grows there isn’t enough room in my underwear or pants. Now the pants can how ever compensate but the underwear does not. The cock throbs and the foreskin and the cock head start to rub under the tight underwear thus simulating me to orgasm.
15h March 2012
While riding my bike I in real day life, I suddenly felt my cock get excited to the vibration of the engine. Now honestly I knew the disaster that would happen! To have an orgasm this powerful while riding a bike was risky because during orgasm my muscles would flex and I might lose balance or control. I quickly slowed down the engine RPM and parked my bike on the road side and waited for this sensation to disappear. The problem was that when I am not horny the penis goes down pointing downwards. The thin and tight underwear attempts to keep it in that place so when this happens the cock head starts to feel vibration from the tension. My solution was simple. I made a small opening along top of the underwear below the elastic band. This made sure less pull on the pointed down penis and it also made sure that the cock would come out without restriction when I’m really horny.
16h March 2012
Today I took a piss and to find a sudden leak of pre-cum from the prostate. It felt like I wanted to pee but to find a drop of pre-cum came out. That day again when I was riding my bike I felt an urge to cum but this time I was not even hard! On the road. It was my seating position on the bike. I was sitting on the prostate simulating it. Now my there were certain factors, more than one. The pointed down penis throbbing, The pointed up penis throbbing, and sitting angle prostate simulation! Wow! I’m hyper sensitive! I found that angling back on the bike solved the urge to cum problem.
17th March 2012
The urges were there. It was still there and it was annoying. Today I took a shit. I found that small drops of pre-cum came out as I stressed to pass shit. I was a bit annoyed. I took a good shit and went to bed and fell asleep. All of the sudden in my sleep I felt another orgasm building! It was like “let me cum, let me cum” but then I hit the brake again! And this time not a single globe of cum came out my cock! It was painful, as awoke I could feel my cock and balls and prostate pulsating in pain. During the day the prostate was a bit sore. But I was still horny, I still wanted to cum!
18th March 2012
Today morning I woke, there was no urge to cum! There was no sore prostate. It was like I had a wet dream orgasm! I was like “Oh shit! Did I cum?” I was happy to find that my cum stain sensitive shorts were clear of any cum stains or such thing! What a thing uh? Wow! I thought to myself. Its seems that my body that had been used to orgasms and Cumming and is now slow realizing that it cannot proceed with it. The body has possibility start to absorb the semen inside the reproductive tract (back into the body), something it has not done for over 10 years. It has been a month since I had my last orgasm! WOW!
Hope to update later! And yes, I'm a Sri Lankan.
Conclusion so Far
Our society due to religions turn down masturbation.. This is a diary that shows everyone sensible that it is NOT impossible to quit masturbation, but it shows how completed things become. Not everyone has the brain IQ and power to intervene into a wet dream. As told here, stopping masturbation for a teenager is possible, but wet dreams CAN become nightmares when they happen in the wrong place. Its time all these religious PhD holders notice this.
>I have extra energy yes, I am able to run and walk more. But I tend to sleep during the day more!
>My reflexes and thinking speed has improved. So has my typing speed.
>Girls are more attracted to me. My social dialogs are better and my speaking speed has improved.
BUT
>My productivity has dropped by 50% because my mind is self-aware and trying methods not to have turn on's or orgasms.
>My eating has reduced by approx 30%, Ability to focus on work has dropped by 80%. I have not become fat! I have lost weight!
>Mental break was visible on the 5th of March 2012 showing minds collapse.
>Sudden anger, shouting. I feel very angry very fast.
These are facts parents, judges in court need to consider before saying "No porn". We will see how life goes. I'll report back with the rest of the diary in time. No one wants to talk of these things in Sri Lanka. Its a pity through because these are the things that need to be talked on.
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