so confused life I personally hate myself

[sanzilla jackcat]

hi all,
now I am a senior member on the elakiri , more than 500 posts.
Somehow many ppl know me in many ways. But none of them seen my
real picture.

so I thought to tell share something about me.

Well me , Oky I will tell the truth . My life is so suck.I bron as a very innocent ppl
to this cruval world you know.However I was bron in a good family , father and
mother is also god. But the panadura environment is soo bad . It make me a to
think more roughf and hard.

My school life is also . Nothing I get new from that life. Really I don't likes to
say "Hello World " even to my school mate. I need to forgot them all. really.
They also not worth to rem . My school life is a jungle law. Actually the jungle
law is better than that.

hmmm ,why this happened to me. Next my uni life , well not completed anyway I unable to make any friends , then I drop it . I don't need the friends
who don't listen to me and don't accept my leadership. I'm so roughf to
kick them all out due to the previous challenges that I have already faced.

now I am doing BIT external degree to complete my education. everything sucks. No friends no life and no problem actually becos I love this life. I even
don't really likes to welcome any friends to my life. I only need the professional
friends.Life so sucks with the challenges , I even yet not what I need .

I don't know why this is continiously happning to me ?

if somebody have any idea this may be helpful.


I got a huge amount of stress everyday but now I love it. and the days without stress are lazy days now.

I have tried already to suside , but I anyhow lived ! now too much strong , but
love this shatted life and hate myself. I don't know why I living for ? the answer is I this ugly shatted life.

 

[gnate3_2009]

 

[sanzilla jackcat]

I want to know am I the only one who having a worse life like this ?

WHO LIVING FOR THE CHALLENGE AND LEARN TO TASTE THE STRESS ?

 

[jayanthah]

Well mate, it's so sad that you are feeling that way, especially that you had to drop out of Uni due to this, I dont think you are the only one to feel that way, take it easy mate, listen to a song, I'd recommend Clarence

But, if you are depressed & dowm, I think you should get some help, talk to your parents, tell them what you feel, talk to a clergy you trust & respect, if needed, seek professional help!!! Dont try to be by yourself, it wont help you,

Good luck bro, you are a nice & valuable memeber of EK, I'm sure you'd find many friends...........dont give up, dont let yourself down, you deserve a better life,

Good Luck

 

[CoolCartoon]

first change your attitude machan....

 

[suga]

heyyy Dont Worryy like this.. Everone has problems in different ways. the best thing to over come ur problems is identify the closest person to ur heart and discuss ur problems with that person. im sure it will help to ease ur problems..thats soo gud atleast u talk to elakiri nw.. dont hate life. feel it.. life is a gift.. u'll understand it in near future myfriend. dont ever think u dont hv friends, v all r friends and a family tooo. u r not alone anymore..

 

[Isuru Nayanajith Bandara]

hey bro dnt think much od these things coz EK family is always wit u.u can find much mor profesional frnds here.socity is a mix of ppl.so we cant always find gud ppl.suicidng wil not help u @ all.so find answers 4 ur questions.answer r within u.to take dem out u need frnds dats true.here u hav visited da great place so chill.dnt think too much

 

[prabu901104]

muchan believe it or not, i had the same issue as yours. i was born in a nice family. my school life sucks...etc. but now i am happy. just live the way u want. don worry about others. If u really feel you can do it, then carry on. i had some friends. they also sucked. they also see meas a competitor they are behaving they know much than me. suckers. so i kicked them from my life don't worry friend. you will be alright. god bless you!

 

[Lightning_McQueen]

hm.... in this case....major problem is u still don't have any friends to share ur happy and sad moments.... first of all find a friend.( 1 friend is enough).. and then u should change ur attitude towards the life.... because of ur thoughts u always feel the same thing " this life sux".. that's completely wrong... U r the one who can change ur life... no one can do that for u...
at least, if u r telling ur problems to ur parents ( mostly mother)..u'll feel some relax...

living without friends is impossible for me... from ur story i realized u don't even like to welcome anyone to ur life as a "FRIEND"... so how can people help u.??
just re-create ur mind into a positive way.... i haven't heard of anyone. who telling that panadura area is kind a jungle law.... cause i have many friends there.... and u didn't even have friends in school... oh friend.. what sort of life u spent there?? ( in school?? )

as i said, u first change ur thoughts about life... actually it sucks sometimes.. but not always...without challenges how can we live... if there are no any challenge..life will be easy-going... after that u will think this life sucks without any challenges....

so friend... be positive.. this's the only thing i have to say.... in ur whole story, it says about ur negative thinking about life...
hope u'll change the mind as soon as possible... read others' advices also

 

[prabu901104]

and muchan this is important. talk to someone you really trust.

 

[snoop]

 

[sridas]

oho...no...macho....

 

[Hiranchandima]

face the problem mate rather than hiding ...sure u'll get bunch of good friends...change ur attitudes.... life isnt d@ suxs .... face it,,,, change it,,,!! gudluck..budusaranai

 

[silence]

hi all,
now I am a senior member on the elakiri , more than 500 posts.
Somehow many ppl know me in many ways. But none of them seen my
real picture.

so I thought to tell share something about me.

Well me , Oky I will tell the truth . My life is so suck.I bron as a very innocent ppl
to this cruval world you know.However I was bron in a good family , father and
mother is also god. But the panadura environment is soo bad . It make me a to
think more roughf and hard.

My school life is also . Nothing I get new from that life. Really I don't likes to
say "Hello World " even to my school mate. I need to forgot them all. really.
They also not worth to rem . My school life is a jungle law. Actually the jungle
law is better than that.

hmmm ,why this happened to me. Next my uni life , well not completed anyway I unable to make any friends , then I drop it . I don't need the friends
who don't listen to me and don't accept my leadership. I'm so roughf to
kick them all out due to the previous challenges that I have already faced.

now I am doing BIT external degree to complete my education. everything sucks. No friends no life and no problem actually becos I love this life. I even
don't really likes to welcome any friends to my life. I only need the professional
friends.Life so sucks with the challenges , I even yet not what I need .

I don't know why this is continiously happning to me ?

if somebody have any idea this may be helpful.


I got a huge amount of stress everyday but now I love it. and the days without stress are lazy days now.

I have tried already to suside , but I anyhow lived ! now too much strong , but
love this shatted life and hate myself. I don't know why I living for ? the answer is I this ugly shatted life.

Ooo.. how I love psychoanalysis challenges, my favourite. So let me give you the skinny from what I understood and inferred purely from this post.


Judging from several locations from the post, I see your mentions of 'senior member', 'don't need friends', 'your leadership', 'professional friends'. I think it strongly points out that you think really highly of your self.. which is good, but you seem to be doing it too much. When you have the mentality that you are better than everyone (aka big headed), you put everyone else below you. This in return becomes a problem, because you will not want to hang out with anyone who is 'below' you. This also projects out from you when you talk to anyone... so be humble, but be different (this makes you interesting), and listen to others: keep this in mind and you will go a long way.


You also name drop BIT, and judging from your avatar and 'hello world', I take that you are on the technical side. Put this to good use, contribute to open source stuff, start local software projects, make a computer related clubs and events near your area, be a leader (put your negative traits in to good use), this will get your name known, plus this will let you meet and hang out with people more like you, hopefully make some good friends in the process. This will be a LOT of work, but you have to.


You say all you need a professional friends. For you they might be professional friends from work... but for the rest of society, there are two types of friends (professional and regular friends). You looking for professional friends will end in disaster for you, because for you they will be the perfect friend, but for them, you're just someone from work, and they will always opt out for the social friends (so they can get away from the busy lifestyle & work). Of course there are exceptions, but you might want to change this mentality else you will find out the hard way.




And the final thought is, life can be a lot worse, you have it easy. Imagine you get in a accident, get both your legs & dick amputated... that would be far worse right?

 

[westpra]

Machan there's so much more thing to come in your life... If there's not much for you in your family then it's better you move to some other place... and did you ever believe in religion... whatever your religion you might need it this time badly.. you can pray or do some meditation too... and you can travel around country.. then you can get refreshed and can find new friends... there's time in my life that i feel same.. but time will cure all the wounds in our hearts... I'll surely pray for you to get good in your life... cheers..