Why can't I just hate her and forget her. After all, she rejected me for another guy. A guy she doesn't even know well. A smelly Indian cook! She says she's infatuated with him. Why do I have to dream about her every second. Why should I get so drunk and not go to work on a Sunday night (penalty rates lol).
Maybe I've hurt her before, and she said I'll get hurt even more. That's so true. I feel so sick as if I'm dying. Life really has no meaning without her.
She used to tell me she only loves me, only wants me and will do anything for me. What lies. I was thinking about her today driving at 100 in a 60 zone and the tears just started falling. I can't believe I've demeaned myself so much to cry for that b***. But I can't help it.
I had so many dreams for us. I really thought we had a future together. OMG what should I do... I can't go on.

Maybe I've hurt her before, and she said I'll get hurt even more. That's so true. I feel so sick as if I'm dying. Life really has no meaning without her.
She used to tell me she only loves me, only wants me and will do anything for me. What lies. I was thinking about her today driving at 100 in a 60 zone and the tears just started falling. I can't believe I've demeaned myself so much to cry for that b***. But I can't help it.
I had so many dreams for us. I really thought we had a future together. OMG what should I do... I can't go on.


You know it! 



