Humans by nature as social animals .. hence we sentence people to "jail" for ill behavior to isolate and suffer.
If all what these chaps around you say are atleast half true (not that i give a rats arse of it), you really had had gone through either with some pretty nasty shit in your childhood, or you suffer from Anthropophobia..
The quite disturbing part of it is that you simply long and need the company of others...
Scurvy.. people are not half bad as you think they are !.. ok.. some are pretty shitty... but then again, as a majority.. they are not a bad set of living organisms to interact with.
Somewhere down the line, someone or something made you believe your self that you are "bad" or "not worthy" of other human attraction... so , you basically does what a "bad" guy is
suppose to do., although you are not that bad ass you think or portray as your self to be.
If you think the 18 year old hormone raging, testosterone driven 16+ kids are not worthy of your brain waves... let me offer you a pint one of these days and i will give you enough pointers and philosophy to rack your brain cells dead for a good ol damn decade
But, then again... if you are just looking for the acceptance of favour or fear from these kids through your vulgar and narcissistic comments... Mate.. you just a fucking fag !