Even if you think there were no past suffering the past means living in the past.If life was permanant then you have the right to think about past bad deeds.But life is very limited.During the limited time to think about all the past possibilities is somewhat stupid and insane.Even if the past went as you wanted you can never be sure about tomorrow,let alone tonight yoh might die of a small blood clot.
hmm.. best thing to do is to contemplate about the insignificance of my life...
but sometimes its hard to do so because of the desires and urges...
right now im not in a position of fulfull some of those desires but if i made right decisions in past things could've been different now. thats why it sucks, because most those past decisions directly affect the quality of the life im living now,,
but then again yeah i know it really dosent matter in the grand scale, nothing matters after i die.. but these natural urges are too fucking strong, they interfere my rational thinking..