I met a girl who's willing to fix me up. I know that's a long long shot, but at long last, I want to give this a try. I like how the day becomes so much brighter and happier every time I think of her. It's very likely that we don't end up together, because we are sooo different, however, it still gives me hope.
It's fascinating how going ahead with something that experience tells you to be absolutely stupid, while it continually looks to be going as predicted, still brings you a kind of happiness you always thought was beyond you.
Hope, however miniscule it is in the face of abject reality, is still profound and worthy enough to throw you headfast into rekindling and rediscoveing a life you thought you left long behind for good. That's what I feel. I'm willing to go that distance despite how much it may hurt me.
Whichever way this might go, I'm now finally ready to leave Elakiri life for good. This is not out of spite or anything. Frankly, it's because I think I have outgrown it. Perhaps I maybe here to read something, post some stuff, but I will no longer be the cling on I used to be. That's final, much more so than losing an account. I have lost the will to linger here anymore.
Usually I would use some inflammatory language, and be inclined to post some proof, but frankly, I have nothing more to prove. I don't really care about those stuff. At long last, I want to give life a try.
So goodbye.
Indrajith