This is a good post.. thanks for this and they are totally, absolutely correct.
I think you can contribute to this community in a way that the most of the members can gain something out of it. You are such an unusual piece of shadow of the human nature.
At the beginning of your member-hood you were just another typical member but unfortunately (or i don't know for you whether its fortunately) you suddenly changed urself and acted like a weired person and screwed up everything and your reputation as Athula Siriwardane has been completely lost.
But, as a member I think the (mature) members like you should interact with others especially the with the younger members, without disturbing the immolational instincts of others.
So try to contribute to this community and I think you are well capable of that. Think about it...
cheers.