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KasunKDP

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    :sorry: She grew out of it.She was like 25 then i think.

    that kinda negative childhood memories about her could be the reason why u dont have feelings for her...
    some people create their whole adulthood personality based on their childhood..thats why almost all famous serial killers were abused as kids..
     

    Emios

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    that kinda negative childhood memories about her could be the reason why u dont have feelings for her...
    some people create their whole adulthood personality based on their childhood..thats why almost all famous serial killers were abused as kids..

    Yeah i think you guys solved it for me.I hv very clear memories about those.very well may be the reason i dont hv feelings for her.
     

    Emios

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    no she didn't. she stopped it just out of fear of being punished. she would still release her stress on any child she would come across.

    No bro i was not abused.But she hitted servants for not caring about me well.Like hitted the, for being careless around me.
     

    KasunKDP

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    no she didn't. she stopped it just out of fear of being punished. she would still release her stress on any child she would come across.


    yes apparently she has some psychopathic personality traits.. OP has inherited some of them, thats why his childhood experiences are reflected on him as an adult.. like u said he was lucky that he wasn't physically or sexually abused as a kid.. he could've become a psychopath of some sort :sorry:
     

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    yes apparently she has some psychopathic personality traits.. OP has inherited some of them, thats why his childhood experiences are reflected on him as an adult.. like u said he was lucky that he wasn't physically or sexually abused as a kid.. he could've become a psychopath of some sort :sorry:

    some learn to disassociate when had to experience sexual abuses. i heard it's one of the most wonderful feelings one can ever hope to feel. It's like using heroine.
     

    Emios

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    yes apparently she has some psychopathic personality traits.. OP has inherited some of them, thats why his childhood experiences are reflected on him as an adult.. like u said he was lucky that he wasn't physically or sexually abused as a kid.. he could've become a psychopath of some sort :sorry:

    To be honest i do carry some anger issues from her.But it never came out of me because of some realizations.I still can manifest different personality types.But Im in control:sorry:
     

    Emios

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    did ur mother scolded u when u went outside to play with friends ?

    Not so.But she would not like freinds coming to the house or pets.Not like commanding type of personality.She just seems depressed about it.
     

    KasunKDP

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    some learn to disassociate when had to experience sexual abuses. i heard it's one of the most wonderful feelings one can ever hope to feel. It's like using heroine.

    children ? :shocked:

    To be honest i do carry some anger issues from her.But it never came out of me because of some realizations.I still can manifest different personality types.But Im in control:sorry:

    anger is one of the hardest feelings to control..:sorry:
     

    Emios

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    children ? :shocked:



    anger is one of the hardest feelings to control..:sorry:

    Its not like i want to hit someone.But this absolute dislike and irritation feeling in whole body.Like you know when a mosquito fly around your ear with noise.I got it from mom no doubt
     

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    children ? :shocked:

    yes children :yes:
    https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/129909.The_Boy_Who_Was_Raised_as_a_Dog
    there's an account in this book of a child who used to get sexually abused constantly and the way she found to survive it was to disassociate herself whenever her abuser (as i remember it was her father) started molesting her. she has explained it was like a dream. she would become a bird and fly freely. later she started hurting her cutting her wrists so that she can disassociate her and enter into her dream world. Perry describes her heart rate and blood pressure was extremely law and it was only when doctors couldn't find the cause of her state when hospitalized after found unconscious in school did they called a psychiatrist.
     

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    yes children :yes:
    https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/129909.The_Boy_Who_Was_Raised_as_a_Dog
    there's an account in this book of a child who used to get sexually abused constantly and the way she found to survive it was to disassociate herself whenever her abuser (as i remember it was her father) started molesting her. she has explained it was like a dream. she would become a bird and fly freely. later she started hurting her cutting her wrists so that she can disassociate her and enter into her dream world. Perry describes her heart rate and blood pressure was extremely law and it was only when doctors couldn't find the cause of her state when hospitalized after found unconscious in school did they called a psychiatrist.

    Poor thing.
     

    KasunKDP

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    yes children :yes:
    https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/129909.The_Boy_Who_Was_Raised_as_a_Dog
    there's an account in this book of a child who used to get sexually abused constantly and the way she found to survive it was to disassociate herself whenever her abuser (as i remember it was her father) started molesting her. she has explained it was like a dream. she would become a bird and fly freely. later she started hurting her cutting her wrists so that she can disassociate her and enter into her dream world. Perry describes her heart rate and blood pressure was extremely law and it was only when doctors couldn't find the cause of her state when hospitalized after found unconscious in school did they called a psychiatrist.

    oh.. i thought u meant that getting raped itself was euphoric :sorry:
    its interesting how someone able to imagine such elaborate fiction to cop out from something actually happen..
    maybe if horrific feeling of getting raped is -10000, the imagined fantasy should be +10000 to cancel out the horror :(
     
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    oh.. i thought u meant that getting raped itself was euphoric :sorry:
    its interesting how someone able to imagine such elaborate fiction cop out something actually happen..
    maybe if horrific feeling of getting raped is -10000, the imagined fantasy should be +10000 cancel out the horror :(

    it's not an imagining per se. her whole body would paralyzes and she would then feel nothing. just like when one gets unconscious. he describes heroine does the same thing and doctors even checked her blood for drugs. she would then know nothing about what happened to her during that period.
     

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    it's not an imagining per se. her whole body would paralyzes and she would then feel nothing. just like when one gets unconscious. he describes heroine does the same thing and doctors even checked her blood for drugs. she would then know nothing about what happened to her during that period.

    Yeah i can relate to this.Once i got in an accident where my leg went under a car.There was no pain for an hour or so.I was feeling high in a dreamy state.
     

    KasunKDP

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    it's not an imagining per se. her whole body would paralyzes and she would then feel nothing. just like when one gets unconscious. he describes heroine does the same thing and doctors even checked her blood for drugs. she would then know nothing about what happened to her during that period.

    split personalities are created due to rape too..
    same kinda scinario :sorry:
     

    KasunKDP

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    Yeah i can relate to this.Once i got in an accident where my leg went under a car.There was no pain for an hour or so.I was feeling high in a dreamy state.

    yeah that just natural painkillers of body...
    but generally that kinda thing dosent happen in a slow event like rape..:(