Might see you on the other side
T minus 11D: 04H:16M
Bro, don't feed your brain these negative thoughts. Our brain needs healthy, positive thoughts that increase brain function and brain health; feeding these negative thoughts means that we are feeding shit to the brain. So, how do we expect betterment? I realized this long ago. Once, I had a similar mentality that it was torture to wake up in the morning.
Once I saw a YouTube video in which a black American guy talked about good mental health, he says mental health depends on what you feed into your brain; he says that thoughts are foods to our brain. Which gave me a life lesson. What I realized was that it was similar to addiction; I was addicted to that negative mentality. It took me a very long time and effort to change my mentality, but I am still on the way to recovery. So please don't feed your brain those negative thoughts. Think positively, avoid bad news, and anything that you feel depressing. I know that I may never fully understand your situation, but trust me, there are better solutions.