I was once like you, i mean, in a way i still am, no friends, no nothing, but i got a job and surviving, do you get anxiety attacks often ? I used to but no more... Why didn't you move on with your life? what held you back? My dad threatened to disown and evict me if i didn't find a job back then, so i went to my first job crying and horrified inside. Everybody is fucked up and miserable in a way machan, You only got 20-35 years max, to live through, I am still in my 20s.. just like you, waiting till the life ends...