Got it,
That entirely based on my view and knowledge about you, I still have enough information to maintain that perception. Also, my perception that “Rosh maintains a huge ego over abhidamma” has nothing to do with my other perceptions about you. Knowing that you close to region one way or another (this is another view and bunch of information), I also perceive that in your mind you are trying to help me. So, now what? I still don’t see any issue as these perceptions are true to me.
Done and I am still looking to find a issue in MY mind.
ok, well this is just my understanding and I may be wrong. (btw i mean no disrespect or judgment toward anyone in this)
first of all, i dont think you can
actually detect someones ego just by reading their posts. so why does mind interpret as - "he is maintaining ego over abhidamma"?
from my understanding(experience+reading), when we think we are "seeing ego" we are not directly seeing their ego, but we are seeing our own minds interpretation (own ego), specially if we personally assign value to the same thing.
It is like imagining how we would behave if we had that same skill, status, knowledge, achievement or whateve, and then assuming they are behaving for the same reasons. (not sure if you get what im saying)
think of someone with a V8 revs loudly infront of your house. 3 things can happen (simply)
1.
-you highly value cars, you see a V8 as rare, high status and difficult to obtain..bla bla bla
- because of that, you imagine how YOU would feel if you owned one. maybe you would show it off.
(as how you valued my abhidamma knowledge -
ඔය දැනුම හොඳයි ඉතිං වාද විවාද කරන්න
group discussion එකකදි එහෙම කැපිල පේන්න
පිළිගැනීම හදාගන්න එහෙම
you imagine these you can do these with it, and you assume im doing what you imagine.
- so your mind concludes that he is doing the same thing - "he is showing off."
- you feel challenged/inferior, and you conclude that he has an ego and trying to beat me.
- it is like "wow, this guy has a great car!!, this guy must be showing off with v8 revs becuase he is maintaining ego"
2.
- imagine you already own several bugattis.
- you still recognize the V8 as somewhat valuable, but you are no longer intimidated by it.
- instead of thinking, "He is showing off" you might think, "what the hell is wrong with this guy making so much noise with such a small car"
- action is exactly the same, but your interpretation changes, because your relationship to that value has changed.
3.
- now imagine you dont care about cars at all
- this car has no special value to you
- theres no comparison.
- no ego is detected, It is just noise.
- its like "why is this guy making so much noise? Im trying to sleep."
so from what i see, what you see as my ego may actually reflect how your own ego would be if you were in my situation.
again, this isnt a blame. that is simply how the mind operates. different people can interpret the exact same behavior differently depending on their values, experiences, and mental conditioning. thats normal (is it good, or bad, i dont know)
the issue begins after, when mind mistakes that interpretation for reality. mind
take what our own mind has constructed through our own ego and assume it accurately describes the other person. t
hen go a step further and project that conclusion onto them as if it were a fact!!!
whether you let the thought run or examine it the moment it appears before taking it as a fact is completely personal. it depends on how much value you place on your own thoughts, how much you care about others perspectives and what your standards are around ethics and morality.
ps.
wrote this while working
so there may be mistakes
dont take it as something aimed at you personally. this isnt about blaming or pointing fingers or STRICTLY about yourself. It is just a general analysis that anyone can reflect on, which can be used (hope) to improve ourselves while on our dhamma path.
