I am Gay I want to Suicide

iamafreak

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uba mariyan bun!! ubala wage ewun idala wedak naa kohomath..sirawatama uba mariyan..

matath ehema thamaa hama dawasakama hithenne.puluwan nam mata ikkmanin marea kramayak kiyala denna.mama kamathi mage shariyaye kotas abadhitha pudgalayanta labaa denna mama marunain passe.
 

Savyna

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    Mama me thread eka danna hithuwe man wage godak aya me lankawema athi kiyala hithalai.Me thread eka godak ayata darunu lesa balapai.Mama dakala naa meeta pera me wage thread ekak elakiri.com eke post karala thiyenawa.

    Mama me thread eka danne godak parissamin hithala balala mama meka daanawata kawru hari akamathinam mata samaawenna eth mage hithe thiyena dewal hangan inna bari nisaath. me thread eke lankawe inna yam gay samaajayakata siduwee athi asaadaaranaya ho e samajayata nolabeema pilibada danuwath kirimak lesa me thread eka daanawa.

    Mama ithaamath kaarunika anunta hinsaawak nathi pudgalayek kudaa kala sitama sathutin samanya lesa jeewath wuna kenek. Eth danum therum athi wayasedi mama godak wenas wunaa.Mama godak samaajayen aathwa mage kaamarayata welaa inna uthsaha kalaa.Mokada mama gay nisa. mata awashya wune anith saama pirimi lamayek wagema samaanya lesa jeewath wenna hoda gahanu lamayek samaga yaalu wenna. eth mata elesin inna bari wunaa.

    Mama danata adyaapana ayathanayaka pariganaka paatamaalawak hadaaranawa. Mama kamathi hodata igena ganna eth me gay kiyana de mage jiwithayata godak balapaala thiyenawa igeneematath e wagema balapaala thiyenne.mata eka welaawakata hithenawa mama feelings nathi machine ekak wunaa nam hodai kiyala. ehenam mata mage igeneeme katayuthu hodin karanna puluwan.

    Mata goadak heterosexual yaluwo innawa egollo kawruth man gana danne naa.eth mata homosexual eka yaaluwek inne eyath antharjaallaya harahaa hamuwuna kenek. eyaa mata wada wayasin godak wadi mama eyaata godak aadaraya karanawa. ekiyanne mage wayase inna gahanu- pirimi lamai karana aadarayama mama eyaata karanwa ekiyanne calls,video calls, chat, video chat, sms, email, meetings wage hama deyakma karanawa.

    Mama godak kamathi api dennata ekata ekathuwela films balanna , public party wage dewal walata yanna eth ape samajaye ehema inna baa.Mama me samajayata baninne naa. mama gay samajayata baninneth naa. eth ai me wage gay samajayak bihi wune. egollanta thiyena hageem ai wenas akaarayata athi wune.Me lokaye kisi deyak sadharana naa.Mage prashnayata kisima agam kula bedayak naa.

    api denna inne lankawe godak aathin.api hamuwenne godak kalaathurakin.mama eyaawa meet welaa danata awruddakata wadi. eyaata kalin thawa yaaluwo idala thiyenawa. eyaage thibba parana sambanda kam nawathwala maath samaga digatama sambandakam pawathwanna kamathi wunaa. mama eyaata godak adarei. eth ada hawasa eyage parana yaaluwek eyaawa hamuwenna awith eyaa dan gahanu lamayek wa badala eyage pawulath samaga hamuwenna awith thorathuru kathaa kireemata pamanak. mage yaaluwa eyaawa meet wenna kalin kiwwa eyaa parana yaaluwawa ada hamu wenawa kiyala eth mata eka iwasanna bari wunaa mama eyaata digin digatama sms, calls gaththa egollo mage yaluwage parana yaluwage pawle kattiya samaga dawal kaamakata awith iddi.ithin ekata eyaata tharaha gihin mata kiwwa mage manners naha kiyala. aththatama mama wena kaatawath e widihata meeta kalin karadarayak wela naa. eth passe mage warada mata therunaa. mama eka eyaata pahadili kalaa. eyaa raata video chat ekata enawa ada awe naa. maath ekka tharaha welaa.mama dannawa eyaa kisi waradak karala naa kiyala mama thamai waradi wade kale mata baya eyaa maath ekka digatama tharaha weida kiyala. mama thani weida kiyala.

    Mata eyaawa nathi wunoth mama siyadiwi haani karagannawa. mata eyaawa hara wena kenek gana hithanna baa.Mata eyaawa hama witama mathak wenawa eyaa raata video chat ekata awe nathi wunaama mata hariyata ninda yanneth naa. mata eyaagana thiyenne pirsidu hageemak. eyaa mata wada wayasin godak wadi.

    Mata me thread eka danna awashya wune mama melowin samugaththoth mama wage inna aneth ayata yam kisi sadaranayak itu karana lesa lankawe siyalu janathaawagen illannai. mata man gana kisi prashnayak naa mage jiwithe nathi wunath kamak naa.

    Me thread eka daapu eka gana mata baninna hithena aya bannata kamak naa. egollan banina eka egollange paththen sadaranai eth kenekta wipatha gana watahenna nam thamanuth e wipathata watila thiyenna one.

    mama samagenma illaa sitinawa me thread ekata comment ekak daala mage adahas hama kenaa wethama yawanawanam saha me thread eka pilibada hoda naraka watahala denawa nam samahara wita me thread eke idiri dawas waladi balanna mama jeewathwa stida yanna. jeewathwa sitiyoth mama awith mage adahas methana post karannam.

    I don't know sinhala (because I dont speak it) but i can understand the feeling of wanting to kill oneself due to being gay. Even though I live in the US my family is very much against the idea of homosexuality, so it has been hard growing up knowing how they feel about it and feeling like something was wrong with me... and I did try to commit suicide but it obviously didnt work because I'm still alive..and I'm glad to be sor. If you can't get out of the country maybe you can find some support groups online that are specifically for sri lankans. Know that you are ok, nothing is wrong with you. There is no need to kill yourself because of it. Ive been there, if you kill yourself you are selling yourself short, the next day even you might find something to turn your life around, your family will miss you and so will your friends.
    I can definitely befriend you if you would like. Just know that there is help and hope out there. Good luck.
     

    pissu_buwa

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    Machan..... mekai ube hageem palanaya karaganna igena ganin.... ubata hodama de
    maditation.... ubata puluwanm hoda hamudurowo kenek hodyagen meditation karapan.... bohowita ube hama deyak adu wela uba normal kollek wage hithanna gani...... natham ube hitha hari hadi....... anika uba thaniyen uthsaha karan... normal wenna..... i dont know abt guys but i think it is just a feeling man...... coz we also hv feelings which we cannot do some times but u must control u r mind..... try to do that...... ubata hodama de.. ube ammata kiyapan.... ammala ubata udau karai....(this is just an idea) natham ube hodama yaluwata kiyapan.... Good luck bro......... EK friend r here to help u
     

    iamafreak

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    I don't know sinhala (because I dont speak it) but i can understand the feeling of wanting to kill oneself due to being gay. Even though I live in the US my family is very much against the idea of homosexuality, so it has been hard growing up knowing how they feel about it and feeling like something was wrong with me... and I did try to commit suicide but it obviously didnt work because I'm still alive..and I'm glad to be sor. If you can't get out of the country maybe you can find some support groups online that are specifically for sri lankans. Know that you are ok, nothing is wrong with you. There is no need to kill yourself because of it. Ive been there, if you kill yourself you are selling yourself short, the next day even you might find something to turn your life around, your family will miss you and so will your friends.
    I can definitely befriend you if you would like. Just know that there is help and hope out there. Good luck.

    Yes I know you can understand my situation because you were same place that I am in now.This conversation make me feel good. because I didnt post that kind of thread before elakiri.com or any other place.
     

    charith_nim

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    machan uba mentally down wenne ai? ehema una kiyala mokuth wenne ne. gay orientation eka kiyanne megic ekak newei. there are people like you. its perfectly ok machan. ekama de in here sri lanka minissu owa alipita katha karanne ne. lejjai uo kolu karayek kiyala kon wei kiyala bayai. ekai wenasa. dont worry bro u r not the only one person whoz falling to this problem. get your ass up and face to the problems. find your one and only partner and live with him together. as long as you dont tell you are a gay in public its not a problem at all. owa elipita kiyanna giyoth thamai ubata prashna wedi wenne. duk wenna epa everything will be alright.
     

    iamafreak

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    Machan..... mekai ube hageem palanaya karaganna igena ganin.... ubata hodama de
    maditation.... ubata puluwanm hoda hamudurowo kenek hodyagen meditation karapan.... bohowita ube hama deyak adu wela uba normal kollek wage hithanna gani...... natham ube hitha hari hadi....... anika uba thaniyen uthsaha karan... normal wenna..... i dont know abt guys but i think it is just a feeling man...... coz we also hv feelings which we cannot do some times but u must control u r mind..... try to do that...... ubata hodama de.. ube ammata kiyapan.... ammala ubata udau karai....(this is just an idea) natham ube hodama yaluwata kiyapan.... Good luck bro......... EK friend r here to help u

    eka thamai machan mama mechchara kal mage hageem godak durata paalanaya kara gaththa. mama idiriyatath godak uthsaha karanwa mage hageem palanaya kara ganna. mama mage hageem saha sithuwili paalanaya karanna bawanawa upayogi karagena thiyenawa. mama me gana gedarata kiyanna kamathi naa. thanks for helping me
     
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    iamafreak

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    machan uba mentally down wenne ai? ehema una kiyala mokuth wenne ne. gay orientation eka kiyanne megic ekak newei. there are people like you. its perfectly ok machan. ekama de in here sri lanka minissu owa alipita katha karanne ne. lejjai uo kolu karayek kiyala kon wei kiyala bayai. ekai wenasa. dont worry bro u r not the only one person whoz falling to this problem. get your ass up and face to the problems. find your one and only partner and live with him together. as long as you dont tell you are a gay in public its not a problem at all. owa elipita kiyanna giyoth thamai ubata prashna wedi wenne. duk wenna epa everything will be alright.

    eka aththa mamath kamathi wena kaatawath prashnayak nowana widihata mama kamthi kenekwa asuru karanna.
     

    MLSK

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    onna othana....
    Oya Hitha Hadan Jiwath Wenna Balanna. Me Rate sanskruthiyak thiyanawa.. Me Sri Lankavata gay One naha... Meka Api Kawada hary bandoth ape lamaintath balapanawa... Oya puluvannam Girlsla ekka inna balanna... oya Pirimiyek Oyage awasanavata ema vne.. Oyata haryata adare karana kellek labunoth oma kiyanne naha kawadawath..... oya hithanawanam oyata Gay jivithen midenna barinam marenna hithenawanam eka godak hodai (man gana waradiyata hithanna eppa) a hethuwa oya nisa thawa kidenek gay veida danne naha. a vagema api banda kalekata ape lamainta mona veida... oya puluvan tharam oya gay jivithen midenna ekka apitath ape ratatath hodai.


    Ape me Sri Lankavata Napunsakayo awashya naha....


    mama aththatama Gay ayata kamathi naha ema aya ape ratata one naha......

    oyata gay jivithen midenna barinam Oya gaththa thirane hary Marena ekka thama hoda...

    Mokada oya danne nathiwnata oyage amma / oyage thaththa mona tharam manasikawa watila adda oya nisa...

    Oyage ammata / oyage thaththata kauruhary kivoth putha NAPUNSAKAYEK kila mona tharam lajjawak oyage thathatai / ammatai...

    oya oyage demaw piyan gana hithala oya oma nokara hoda kellek ekka yaluvenna....

    eka oyage demavpiyantath me Sri lankawatath karana loku udawwak...

    ema karanna barinam oya ara gaththa thirane ganna eka me loketama hodai....
     
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    siripera

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    Mama me thread eka danna hithuwe man wage godak aya me lankawema athi kiyala hithalai.Me thread eka godak ayata darunu lesa balapai.Mama dakala naa meeta pera me wage thread ekak elakiri.com eke post karala thiyenawa.

    Mama me thread eka danne godak parissamin hithala balala mama meka daanawata kawru hari akamathinam mata samaawenna eth mage hithe thiyena dewal hangan inna bari nisaath. me thread eke lankawe inna yam gay samaajayakata siduwee athi asaadaaranaya ho e samajayata nolabeema pilibada danuwath kirimak lesa me thread eka daanawa.

    Mama ithaamath kaarunika anunta hinsaawak nathi pudgalayek kudaa kala sitama sathutin samanya lesa jeewath wuna kenek. Eth danum therum athi wayasedi mama godak wenas wunaa.Mama godak samaajayen aathwa mage kaamarayata welaa inna uthsaha kalaa.Mokada mama gay nisa. mata awashya wune anith saama pirimi lamayek wagema samaanya lesa jeewath wenna hoda gahanu lamayek samaga yaalu wenna. eth mata elesin inna bari wunaa.

    Mama danata adyaapana ayathanayaka pariganaka paatamaalawak hadaaranawa. Mama kamathi hodata igena ganna eth me gay kiyana de mage jiwithayata godak balapaala thiyenawa igeneematath e wagema balapaala thiyenne.mata eka welaawakata hithenawa mama feelings nathi machine ekak wunaa nam hodai kiyala. ehenam mata mage igeneeme katayuthu hodin karanna puluwan.

    Mata goadak heterosexual yaluwo innawa egollo kawruth man gana danne naa.eth mata homosexual eka yaaluwek inne eyath antharjaallaya harahaa hamuwuna kenek. eyaa mata wada wayasin godak wadi mama eyaata godak aadaraya karanawa. ekiyanne mage wayase inna gahanu- pirimi lamai karana aadarayama mama eyaata karanwa ekiyanne calls,video calls, chat, video chat, sms, email, meetings wage hama deyakma karanawa.

    Mama godak kamathi api dennata ekata ekathuwela films balanna , public party wage dewal walata yanna eth ape samajaye ehema inna baa.Mama me samajayata baninne naa. mama gay samajayata baninneth naa. eth ai me wage gay samajayak bihi wune. egollanta thiyena hageem ai wenas akaarayata athi wune.Me lokaye kisi deyak sadharana naa.Mage prashnayata kisima agam kula bedayak naa.

    api denna inne lankawe godak aathin.api hamuwenne godak kalaathurakin.mama eyaawa meet welaa danata awruddakata wadi. eyaata kalin thawa yaaluwo idala thiyenawa. eyaage thibba parana sambanda kam nawathwala maath samaga digatama sambandakam pawathwanna kamathi wunaa. mama eyaata godak adarei. eth ada hawasa eyage parana yaaluwek eyaawa hamuwenna awith eyaa dan gahanu lamayek wa badala eyage pawulath samaga hamuwenna awith thorathuru kathaa kireemata pamanak. mage yaaluwa eyaawa meet wenna kalin kiwwa eyaa parana yaaluwawa ada hamu wenawa kiyala eth mata eka iwasanna bari wunaa mama eyaata digin digatama sms, calls gaththa egollo mage yaluwage parana yaluwage pawle kattiya samaga dawal kaamakata awith iddi.ithin ekata eyaata tharaha gihin mata kiwwa mage manners naha kiyala. aththatama mama wena kaatawath e widihata meeta kalin karadarayak wela naa. eth passe mage warada mata therunaa. mama eka eyaata pahadili kalaa. eyaa raata video chat ekata enawa ada awe naa. maath ekka tharaha welaa.mama dannawa eyaa kisi waradak karala naa kiyala mama thamai waradi wade kale mata baya eyaa maath ekka digatama tharaha weida kiyala. mama thani weida kiyala.

    Mata eyaawa nathi wunoth mama siyadiwi haani karagannawa. mata eyaawa hara wena kenek gana hithanna baa.Mata eyaawa hama witama mathak wenawa eyaa raata video chat ekata awe nathi wunaama mata hariyata ninda yanneth naa. mata eyaagana thiyenne pirsidu hageemak. eyaa mata wada wayasin godak wadi.

    Mata me thread eka danna awashya wune mama melowin samugaththoth mama wage inna aneth ayata yam kisi sadaranayak itu karana lesa lankawe siyalu janathaawagen illannai. mata man gana kisi prashnayak naa mage jiwithe nathi wunath kamak naa.

    Me thread eka daapu eka gana mata baninna hithena aya bannata kamak naa. egollan banina eka egollange paththen sadaranai eth kenekta wipatha gana watahenna nam thamanuth e wipathata watila thiyenna one.

    mama samagenma illaa sitinawa me thread ekata comment ekak daala mage adahas hama kenaa wethama yawanawanam saha me thread eka pilibada hoda naraka watahala denawa nam samahara wita me thread eke idiri dawas waladi balanna mama jeewathwa stida yanna. jeewathwa sitiyoth mama awith mage adahas methana post karannam.

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    iamafreak

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    abt the username --your sexual orientation won't make u a freak
    and that was not fighting :P u've no idea how we fight @ EK :lol:

    yes I know EK members fighting a lot with each other from posts. but I dont want to make EK members to fight bcos of my situation