Dude why are you leading a jobless life.
Don't give excuses I know you have a psychiatric disorder. But meantime I saw that you are going to terminate your life once your parents die.
See the user Scurv. He is a dumb fuck fellow living alone. No family, no friends , no exact place to live but yet manage to buy things he wants and enjoy his life at the perspective of his.
Look at you and see how lucky you are? You have both parents, house etc.
Both you have mental disorders but yet Scurvy is ahead of you.
Please find some tutorials on internet and learn some graphic design , web developments and try to earn online money like Scurvy does. Then you'll be able to die like a pro.