your are such a shameful filthy bitch. no one is capable of forgetting hi first love. but that doesn't mean you should stay at that point and suffer your entire life. there are many whom can't marry yet due to so many problems that they have to solve prior. but you jack ass already married and worrying about your past.
mark my word mate today you may worry for the girls whom don't give a single fuck about you. but if you keep going the same way you do; you'll be fucked and you will definitely worry once your wife leaves you.